If your a profesional phycologist could you please answer?

You know, other than misspelling Psychologist, your question seems well thought out, lucid and interesting. Do you really think that a Psychologist is going to be surfing Y.A. for someone that actually needs help. Since you seem to be able to talk to your Dad about this, why don't you ask him to get you set up with a live and in person doc to help you.