I LIKE TO READ STORES ABOUT PEOPLE WHO HAVE BRAN TUMORs aND ARE DYING?

I would say there is something creepy about that. I don't know what you mean by "entertains me" though. Are you fascinated by death or does it make you giggle to hear about people suffering? Two different things there. If it's the ladder... then I'd say you have a problem I would want to look into to.