Sunday, August 7, 2011
What do I need to do?
I have been married for 10 years and we have just a year ago moved to the beach and he has a good job and I have just got the job of my dreams working in the hospital. Things should be great but I am the most unhappest person in the world. My husband has a reagular day job but at night he sings and plays guitar at local bar and I go with him sometimes when I am able too and do DJ music on his breaks. Today I told him that I wasn't happy and he asked me if I wanted to live him I said no because I do love him with all of my heart and soul but I am just not the person I was 5 or even 2 years ago . We never spend anytime alone there is always somewhere are have to be or we are working at our day jobs and the time that we do have off his friends come over and we cook and drink. I am not that person that loves to drink but I do it because I know that is what he loves to do when his friends come over. I have told him that I would like to take one to two days out of the week where it is only me and him no gig's no friends just me and him and it like I must be to boringest person in the world because he is like" and do what we really don't have the money to go out " I just don't understand why it is such a hel to get him to want to be with me I love being around hime use too. But I just know that I am not happy at all and I have asked him if he still loves me and he says that he does and that he doesn't ever want to loss me and I feel the same but like I told him something has to change becaues I wnat a family and start enjoying the life that we have with each other and he seems like he want it also but he is that person that chaces the almighty dollar and I should be lucky that I have someone that is like that and not a bumm , but I have needs and want also and it just seems that we are always filling his and never mine. What do I need to do? Am I just being this needy person that he says I am ? Why can I be happy ?
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